"Hey kid, you'll never live this down"

Monday, February 27, 2006

omg. myee wardrobe's bursting ~~soon~~ real soon.
i haf got no time to tidy it up anD clear clothes that i aint wearing animorre.
[okays, this is just another excuse of mine, if u haf to put it]
heh, hafing a walk-in wardrobe will be great though.
hahaa. alrights. i'm fantasizing again.
kiex. off to work anD shopping wif mummy after that. *cheers.

she misses life as a toddler

Sunday, February 26, 2006

christmas tree (:
he's not anywhere near the "christmas tree" [as miss HXY calls it] i like
yet there's something bt him
some unknown element in him
that makes everything else insignificant
somehow, the fact that he isnt a christmas tree
just doesnt seem to matter
when it cums to him.
he's just erm.. him.
anD the mere thought of
wed being the last dae i wld ever see him
makes mi dread wednesday even morre.
neh~ getting out of here.
gOing shopping ald.
while i'm still in the mood.
too tired to think anw.

she misses life as a toddler

FORT MINOR - Believe Me
[chorus]
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me

I don't want to be the one to blame
You like fun and games
Keep playing em
I'm just sayin
Think back then
We was like one and the same
On the right track
But I was on the wrong train
Just like thatNow you've got a face to pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain like a maze you can never escape the rain
Every damn day is the same shade of grey

Hey
I used have a little bit of a plan
Used toHave a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right out of my hands
Now I don't really even know who I am
Yo, what do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me

[chorus]
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me

Back then, I thought you were just like me
Somebody who could see all the pain I see
But you proved to me unintentionally
That you would self-destruct eventually
Now I'm thinking like the mistake I made doesn't hurt
But it's not gonna work
Cause it's really much worse than I thought
I wished you were something that you were not
And now this guilt is really all that I got

You turned your back
And walked away in shame
All you got is a memory of pain
Nothing makes sense so you stare at the ground
I hear your voice in my head when no one's around
What do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me

[chorus]
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me

[bridge]

[chorus]
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me

Do what i have to do
You're on your own now believe me

What ever happens to you
You're on your own now believe me

What do I have to say
You're on your own now believe me

It's not gonna happen to me
You're on your own now believe me

she misses life as a toddler

Your Seduction Style: Prized Object

The seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get.You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them.The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase.
You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away.You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance.Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't!
You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors.Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor.You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

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The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

gosh. this is so TRUE. lol.

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Your Birthdate: February 18

You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause.You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too.Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others.You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress.
Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years
Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities
Your power color: Crimson red
Your power symbol: Snowflake
Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

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How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

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Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.But you may be ready in a couple of years.You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

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Snickers

Nutty and gooey - you always satisfy.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

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You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt.And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting.Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt.And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

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Friday, February 24, 2006

release of the A's
...
1st march
1st march
1st march
1st march
*1st march
so its finalli here. the day i most feared. drawing nearer and nearer. anD bEfore we knew it, the result slip will be in my hand. so issit gonna be good or bad?
saw this gal on the train w/ the textbook "understanding our past" in her hand. the usual. mugging. lol. i remember how i used to alwix go out w/ lecture notes in myee bag. even though the chances of mi taking it out, readin anD absorbing the information is ultra low. nonetheless, i will just do it. just to make myself guilt-free.
fer weeks, i haf been hafing alot of dreams. all revolving round myee future. i dreamt bt myee grades. bt the various universities. etc etc. i just haf this intuition that my results's gonna turn out BAD. YES. BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD! kies. this is fucking irritating. the cynical inner self. alrights. i even reduced to cursing the plane delievering our results anD moe. i was hoping fer the plane to crash. anD fer the MOE building to be attacked by terrorist anD explode. alrites. mere STUPIDITY. I NOE! i am just dumb can. if this makes you happy=/
anw, just wish mi the best anD dun console mi if you see mi crying. cus seriously, it's just gonna get worse. i noe myself. and was telling dian toDae. if she doesnt see mi at work on thurs, she shld noe wuD happened. anD to pardon mi. hahaa. myee cuTe dian(:
oh yes. now something happier. i'm gonna dye myee hair next wkend. thinking of pink highlight. should i or should i not go ahead wif it? nvm. i haf until nxt wkend to decide. ie, if myee grades aint too bad anD i'm in the mood fer it.
anw, mummy found out bt terence relationship w/ jolene. omg. all i can say is: dun belittle myee mummy. i dunnoe how on earth she actualli found out [w/o myee help mind you.]. but she did it anw. anD wud surprised mi most: she's pretty cool bt it! lol. she was just telling terence not to let it affect his sTudies. heys myee dear brother! u bEta do wuD u promised her kie kie. else i cant promise she will let things stay as it is now. well, u should noe her. thats our mummy(:
hai. i still wanna kpo how on earth she found out though. the problem is: i'm not on toking terms wif her now. yes. kinda disappointed w/ her over some stuff. sigh. guess i will be giving in soon. since i'm so desperate anD dying to noe the answer. anD our dear mr terence hasnt got an answer fer mi. neh~ hahaa. am just gonna show hEr the pretty heels i just bought to strike a conversation. the usual. easy. heh.
anw, gonna hit the sacks soon. niTes ppl(:

she misses life as a toddler

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

gosh. this is freaking mi out. i cantt help but believe that karma do exist. Dian fell down the stairs in motorola yesterday anD i we wouldnt stop laughing. esp when i thought of her reaction anD how i was shrieking like hell. true enough. i missed a step anD fell while alighting the bus todae. omg. freaking embarassing alrites. anD there's this LONG stretch of ppl behind mi, wanting to alight at the same stop as mi. bet they were shocked like i was. didnt turn to look at them. neither did i laughlike i normally would when i fall down. cus this aint farni LAH. omg. all that was in my mind was to get up fast anD walk away as quickly as i cld. duh. thank god the sight wsnt too ugly.

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Sunday, February 19, 2006

sick
eugh. awful! fell ill again. omg. it's freaking weird. i think myee brain shrunk or sth when i haf migraine. neh~ sEriously, i feel as though there's alot of empty spaces in myee skull. cus all it takes is fer mi to turn myee head anD it will hurt like nobody's business. shall be gooD anD blog bt myee 19th birthdae tomorrow, if i'm feeling bEtter. cus i am feeling a little feverish ald. niTes ppl. oh yes, bEfore i actually go to bed, thanks to all that made myee 19th b!rthdae such a wonderful one. lurf myee sweethearts(: no doubt bt that.

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Friday, February 17, 2006

lol. kissing goodbye to 18 in slightly more than an hour's time.
my affinity fer 18Feb
doesnt incluDe the part on turning 19..
hahaa.
"oh, i'm 19" sounds so old=/
neh~

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

got this off joanne's blog. kinda accurate fer mi.

Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"
You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love.You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart.
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!)
Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic
What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays
Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourcandyheartsayquiz/

anw, happy valentine's day to all(: spread the love around ['',]

she misses life as a toddler

Sunday, February 12, 2006

second lizard found in this house
neh~
i wanna move house!!

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Friday, February 10, 2006

alrights. so the sec 4s collected their O'level results todae. needless to say, some will do extremely well anD others, not as well.[i will most likely fall under the latter category when the A's is released.] YES. much as i dreaded, 2 wks later it will be myee turn. sitting in the school hall. all tensed. things are realli not looking good. not that i'm trying to be pessismistic and stuff [not as though things will turn out good if i stay optimistic anw] in any case, that's not gonna change my results that's prolly sitting in the moe office locked up in some cabinet right now. i realised how my fate's actualli sealed this time round. two years ago, i wasnt as worried when collecting myee O's. i dun remember suffering from insomnia daes before. that's onli cus i knew i had poly education to fall back on lest i cldnt make it fer jc. anD that i noe i wun be reduced to entering the ite. not that i'm looking down on ite. YES. everyone's saying that it's a way out too. that u can make it big even if u are merely from ite. that it's not the end of the world. well, nobody saes it is. i feel irritated when ppl sae that actualli. i'm not saying that it's not a way out. it is a way out indeed. but it's a route that no one wAnts if given a choice. see my point? that's just a mere excuse ppl are giving themselves. to break free from the guilt fer not putting in efforts in their stuDies. same here. YES. u can survive even without a degree. it wun be an easy way out though. it's just like this stretch of road that everyone takes. just that u dun haf the luxury to drive a car. u will be made to walk. or maybe if u are slightly more fortunate, u can ride a bike[ppl who are rich enuff fer overseas studies/private university] Like it anot, reality will smack right in your face as time goes by. pragmatism that is.
anw, passed by YT earlier on. it's in the process of being demolished ald. man, i missed that school. Lotsa memoriEs just came flooding. heh. so my memory aint as poor as i thought.
kie.. let mi see..
i remember walking into the school anD dreading it cus it wasnt the school of my choice.
i remember thinking how lao kok the school was on the very first dae.
i remember the first time i met rubby when she joined joy anD mi fer recess.
[i still remember we had chicken rice fer recess. oh god, wud a thing to remember=/]
i remember us carrying similar school bags coicidentally; looking all ~~nerdy~~ studious
i remember how we used to name our crushes apple 1, apple 2, apple tart [if there's even such a thing] etc
i remember how rubby used to be the messenger fer mi anD him
i remember how we two used to write appeal letters to mr alvin goh, had this talk wif mr tan, just to quit the cca Band anD to join guiDes.
i remember the story rubby told mi bt the haunted toilet as we walk past the Science labs
i remember how i alwix forget to wear apron during Home Economic lessons anD get marks deducted fer that as a result.
i remember how i failed this particular guides proficiency test anD realli went home to mug fer it.
i remember this history teacher we had[ mr larry ser]; how he used to lick his thumb; how we used to say that he's Diana Ser's father
i remember how we will aliwx run to rubby's sis's[serene] class whenever school term ends to kip our books in her locker so that we wldnt haf to brin back home.
i remember how our form teacher mrs jacQueline Lee is alwix checking our files.
i remember how we used to borrow Geography articles anD phtocopy whenever she check on our files
i remember how much i hate but was made the class monitress just because i topped the class in sec1.
i remember giving mrs lee the excuse of wanting to focus on my stuDies, just to break free from the responsibitlity of being a monitress.
i remember this once when i cried in sec 2 cus i cant finish my art piece that was part of the assessment all thanks to jieting who kips borrowing myee materials from mi.
[i still remb drawing flowers anD stuff in mr phua koon tong's lessons]
i remember hafing to attend this pronounciation course every week at toa payoh safra and there's this once when mrs lee board the same bus as the class anD rubby was like announucing " lao kuay bu shang cer liao" [bad gEr. tsk tsk. dun learn frm her=P]
i remember how classes are alwix exchanging tips fer tests anD we actualli knew all the Qns bEfore the test. there;s this once when poh loong asked mrs ramesh bt this particular Literature Qn [ that was obviously the test Qn] just bEfore the test anD she was so shocked. hahaa.
i remember hafin this realli interesting science trc of mine [mrs leow] in lower sec who eats chalks anD play ard with hEr hair while teaching
i remeber this once when rubby said "lan jiao" anD mr lee went blushed while scolding her [god, that was realli hilarious]
i remember how i'm alwix getting vain anD combing myee hair in class anD mr lee actualli asked mi to stop combing my hair. lol.
i remember crying over an Science test on acid and alkali which i failed
i remember how i did quite badly fer this History test just because i took the wrong stand[myee argument was right kie]
i remember being realli petty[oh well, i still am] and hafing this realli silly quarrel wif freak over sth thats so insignificant that i dun even bother to remember
i remeber 2e3 selling potong ice-creams [as part of our fund-raising] during lessons, when we have a maths term test in the afternoon [i still remember its on the topic factorisation]
i remember how rubby anD i used to quarrel anD we will be toking to each other again in less than 2hrs. [i haf no idea why but whenever we quarrel, the next thing that happen is that the teachers will be asking the class to do pair work anD one of us will just move our chair over]
i remember this realli big quarrel we had anD i was screaming in class [man that was so silly]
i remember how gurjoth sitting nxt to mi is alwix mugging, memorising anD scribbling her notes
i remember us skipping reccess , sitting in the class talking bt everithing under the sun
[well, except fridays when we will go dwn to the canteen fer nasi brani]
i remember us alwix exchanging tips on weight loss
i remember how that crappy joshua sitting right in front of mi is alwix challenging mi in emaths.
how he can beat mi easily in maths but suck at chem [ha! i still remb his anode to cathode thingy]
not forgetting how jiarui and mingshu are alwix trying to challenge mi as well..
i remember our 5566-craze; when our classmates will be in a difficult position whenever they have magazines, articles etc on 5566 to give to the both of us
i remember how we used to play catching in class [in sec 4, mind you] snatching 5566's artcles from each other
i remember hafing to go fer this one hour DC cus i was late fer school
i remember this realli cmi Operation Manager who cant speak properly anD how the whole school is alwix laughing at his english.
i remember alwix getting caught by mr jerry yeo fer wearing those AA accessories to school when we are supposed to wear onli stuDs.
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am realli amazed by myee pseudo superb memory. hahaa. anD these events took place YEARS ago! the irony: i cantt even recall wuD happened ytd. some things are just not meant to be forgotten i guEss(: *cheeriOs to our 7 years of friendship, rubby! lol. there will more to come ['',] YTSS [w/ mr tan of cus] sth that i will alwix bE proud of though ppl are alwix giving that "huh? wuD school is that again" look when i told them i'm from YTSS. nonetheless, it's quite established in Yishun area kie. so its those ppl that are sk. not that my school is ulu. neh~ anD that new principal. if he fails to kip up the current std of YT, i'm gonna hate him fer that. come to think of it, i was neva proud when i said i WAS from nyjc. heh, think bt it.

as simple as this(:

she misses life as a toddler

Sunday, February 05, 2006

decided to go casual toDae anD YES, this is wuD i wore to granny's place.. lol. not that she sets a rule saying that we must wear formal clothes to her place during cny anw. hahaa. YES. i'm granny's fav grand-daughtEr ['',] she's so gonna love mi=P

neh. this guy hEre insists that he's taller than mi. oh well, he is actualli.. heh. someone must be darn happy now hur... jolene, smack him!

mi wif myee ever so cuTe daddy(: alwix ready to pose fer the camera['',]

i never used to like beer. buT i changed myee mind. lemonade wif beer. freaking niCee(:

heh. i'm loving it!

check ouT the captions!
i cant realli recall. buT its sth bt malaysian reading less tha 4 books a yEar. omg. can u imagine that?

alrights. went to visit myee paternal granny in malaysia. As usual, the house's packed anD filled wiF fun laughter anD joy(: am glad we all make it a point to gather at granny's place in msia each year.
i realli love it at granny's place. there will alwix be things that amaze mi. things which we can neva see in spore.
this time round, huiling anD i were so amazed by a stray dog chasing after a rooster. anD gosh, the rooster was flying at such a great height. okays, call mi sk if u haf to. buT sEriously, i have n0t seen a rooster flying such long distance anD at such a great height bEfore. amazing(:
anw, am so glad to see myee distant cousin from malacca that i havent seen fer years! hahaa. the last time i saw him [according to mummy] was in 1992! omgawd. YES. that's so long ago. lol.
anD uncle wldnt sTop teasing mi. he was telling mi wud a rubbish bin i was when young. i used to tell my aunts nat to throw their bags away anD to save it fer mi. oh gosh. thats so embarassing anD uncle actualli remembErs that of all things. neh~
the rest of the time was spent gambling, playing around wif myee realli cuTe cousins, hanging ard at granny's garden[i call it the wondErland] anD YES, much as i hate to admit.. indulging in new yEar gooDies. neh~

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Friday, February 03, 2006

man, i'm so in love wif the theme song of the channel 8 show "love concierge".
this is the second mediacorp produCtion that i am so in love wif, ever since "the champions"
the rest are just erm.. cmi.
ha! anD that incluDes "rainbow connection" miss HXY. lol.

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Thursday, February 02, 2006

fer a second
it made my heart skip a beat
i thought it was you
myee heart sank
the second i knew i made a mistake
that it wasnt you.
i wanted it to be you
i prayed that it was you
wuD's the point?
it's just not you.
just forget it.

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omgawd.
i just freaked out anD cried earlier on when i saw a lizard in my room
anD the best thing: it appeared out of nowhere
neh~ i was screaming fer terence to vacuum it LAH
omgawd. it's so damn gross can.
anD he just wldnt stop laughing.
yes. u can imagine mi shocking the whole neighbourhood wif my scream
thanks alot.
i feel so smart now=/
eeks!

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cny 2006
alrights. so we are more or less done wif chinese new year.. lotsa thoughts running at the back of my mind.. i wldnt sae i'm exactly in the mood to blog bt every single dae of cny. so shall leave it to the photos to do the joB alrights?

terence wif mummy(:
think terence looks different somehow.

nah. there goes another shot of him. lol.

heh. anD now its my turn.

my new hairstyle ['',]

look at our mouths. dun ask mi wud happen. i havent got any idea=P

daddy lurfs it when it cums to cny(:

i think myee daddy look like the god-of-fortune. lol. cai shen ye.

myee loving daddy anD mummy(:

daddy;mi(:

the four of us (: *happy family* nono. we arent playing the card game -_-"

look at myee realli cuTe daddy. hahaa. he's so happy.

now.. it's terence again. look at his dimples! hrmph! it was supposed to be mine okie. neh~

mummy anD mi in the lift. lol

terence wif daddy ['',]

mummy is complaining bt her wrinkles. she's so gonna kill mi if she sees this picture up here. hahaa. bEt i'm gonna find new skin care products in her wardrobe soon..

YES. we are camera freaks =)

omgawd. YES. this is terence's leg.. it's so NOT man. hahaa

it realli wasnt myee idea to take this pic. lol. it was mummy's. nice pix anw, i was telling hEr. anD she actualli replied,' cus it's myee feet u are taking, my dear" -_-" now i noe why i'm so bhb at times. lols. genes!

this lady must haf thought that her daughter's so pretty that she wldnt stop looking at her. hahaa.

anD now a decent shot ['',]

heh. i lurf taking pix when there's wind.

myee heels! arent they pretty? man i lurf them lots(:

two of myee realli cuTe cousins staying over at myee place=) arent they cuTe?? heh.. they haf goT miss chong chun ying's genes kie.. hahaa.

zhi kang=)

yi hui(:

danger. keep out! hahaa

lol. this looks creepy!

lol. we are veri tireD.

wasnt exactly looking forward to this year's cny at first [as expected]. however, i must say i enjoyed myself during cny this year. fer one thing, i could somehow cliQue bettEr wif some of myee cousins this year (: in the past, we dun realli haf much to tok bt. there's just this barrier among us. not that we dislike each other or anithing, but it was just awkward. this has been going on fer a couple of yEars. am realli glad we are now all bonded together again.
am kinda surprised actualli.. to see that most of them haf changed so much over the year. lol.
anD all myee aunts are saying that i'm fair anD all! omg. i was telling them that i dun wan that anD that i wan a tanned complexion. one of them actualli said she wld exchange her tan fer my fair complexion. yes, maybe i will appreciate a fair complexion a few years dwn the look. but not now. i still think being fair=sickly=weak. a tanned body=healthy. gosh. this is bad. last time i'm repeating myself, dun tell mi i haf a fair complexion! i hate that. eeks. miss chong chun ying niDs a tan, right now.

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