Friday, September 15, 2006
alrights. so today was a damn cranky day fer mi [and super duper drama]
i have absolutely no idea whats up with mi todae
i think some nerves of mine that's connected to one's laughter control came loose today
i just wouldnt stop laughing!
i was laughing at practically everithing!
from the tissues [okays, it actually turned out to be sandwhich wrappers] on bud's plate which i think is damn auntie, to kunda being a good boy finishing up all his veggie to etc etc.
and i was damn embarassed during IA can. omgawd. Balwant [btw, he's my lecturer lest anione of you out there's wondering] was drawing a mercedes on the board LAH [which looks more like a tanker anw]. i was already trying hard to control my laughter. anD that stupid kunda sitting behind mi had to spoil everithing by cracking a super lame joke "wah, its so rare to see the driver sitting ahead of the front wheel". i literally burst out laughing upon hearing that can. Fer that spilt second, i forgot i was in the lecture hall. and gosh. the next thing i know, EVERYONE in the LT was turning their heads. i hope not too many of them realised its mi. omgawd. in the past, its just a handful who will turn and try to look fer the idiot who's like laughing. so you can imagine how loud it was. what's more, i was controlling my laughter before that. so it was damn LOUD can. eugh!! there goes my reputation. and stupid bud! i not attending some stupid art lesson can. neh~ just making those boring dull notes more colurful can. hurhur.
after class, was lalaa-ing w/ ernest and weihao [lynn's oyster] called mi a radio!!!! kns. he was like like toking over the phone with lynn todae and he was telling lynn that i was speaking so loudly that he can hear mi all the way from tampines? [i cant remember the exact location he mentioned but anw.. ] as though that wasnt enough, he went on to call mi a radio. i was like R.A.D.I.O??!! he told lynn i didnt stop toking fer the past 10 minutes or so while he was on the phone with her. that he kept hearing mi rattle on and on. boo! i didnt even realised that can. and ernest was also talking what. hurhur.
went town with lynn after class. was feeling so stressed up LAH. anw, was a great day out except fer the fact that the two of us could only afford to window shop. damn broke! eeks! the feeling simply sucks. we didnt even buy anithing. not even a single top. CAN U IMAGINE that?? gosh. hahaa. but still, had a great time with her. it realli feels good to have a pal like her, whom you can lalaa about almost everithing with. we neva seem to run out of topic. simply lurf that feeling! lols.
met up with rubby sm and lp after that. teehee! lurf seeing the gals again. lols. was telling them the balwant joke at subway. and it all started again. lols. and we saw mingshu!! my crush back in secondary school. gosh. i cant believe it! i actually see him like after 4 years. lols. man, he look damn different i must say. silly sm said he look like some mainland guy. and we all started laughing again. no OKAYS. its jap style silly ger!
oh ya! was crapping with edward. damn boliao. we ended up arguing whether it's doggies that are scared of cats or the other way. ahaha! damn farni. end up dragging ernest into the silly arguement. OKAYS. we have nothing better to do -_-"
OKAYS. anw, e depressing part of the day came after OB. i just have this super duper strong bad feeling about my individual OB essay. as in i didnt have that kind of great feeling like i did when i am done with my GP essay back in JC. eugh!! i just hope that my essay doesnt turn out too bad. i dunn wanna repeat the whole module again! i know whats done cannot be undone. but still.. i cant help worrying.. S.I.G.H... the feeling simply sucks alrights.
and i just dun get it. i dun understand why am i like settling fer something less. i dun understand why did i have to lose all the momentum and enthusiasm to mugg when i went to jc. I JUST DONT GET IT. i used to be aiming fer things like being top in the class, top 10 in the level, top 40 in the level etc etc back in secondary school. i will cry if i see grades like B4. sometimes i just get so damn pissed off with myself fer ending up in today's state. like i wouldnt end up in such a pathetic state if i hadnt play so much fer the past two years. call mi scaredy cat or whatever. i dun care. but i am realli scared. i realli dun wanna waste another 3 years of my life in sim, and end up getting a degree that's gonna lead mi to nowhere. i dunn wan history to repeat itself! i wanna get a proper and pretty degree by the end of three years! i reali wan to.. i'm like feeling so overwhelmed and overloaded i aint sure i have the strength to carry on anymore. not that i expect to get a degree with ease. but..shrugs. in any case, i have made up my mind. to play as much as i can next week and i am hitting the book soon after that. no more shopping clubbing pubbing movies or whatsoever nonsense till the end of sem papers. YES. that shall be it. people, mugg hard too okie?
i know i am long winded. but seriously, i am really glad to haf known this bunch of uni mates. i think i will die w/o them. that my uni life is gonna be damn pathetic and boring w/o them. they are realli great peeps to lalaa with! even on my gloomy days, with all those crap, nonsense and lame jokes of theirs, one just cant help but laugh. even though its just fer that short moment, but still, they made my day(: thanks peeps!
anw, i realli dun noe why. lotsa peeps are saying that i give them a feeling that i am from a girls' school and that i am a potential les. lols. i am just a LITTLE more sexist what. hahaa. hmm...
oh yeps! i am so happy that lynn's joining Sea Sports club with mi!! depp!e depp!e yepp!e [ernest choy. purleese fer heaven sake, learn this by hard. i dun wanna kip correcting u. you alwix get it wrong if u havent realise. hahaaa!] anw anw, its like 40 bucks fer a 3-years membership!! woohoo~~ i was like damn high after hearing this!! yayeness!! like finally! ahaha! kayaking, windsurfing and wakeboarding awaiting mi! its getting mi so excited ca. anyone anyone interested?? lols. can jio the both of us go together. and i think i wanna take up diving someday. teehee!
okays. nites peeps! my energy level's running low ald. hahaa~
hidden behind the smile are nothing but tears...
she misses life as a toddler
